Monday, 30 March 2015

Life choices, nose picking and animal heads



People who kill animals to hang them on their walls are like ear or nose pickers who insist on examining the fruits of their labours.  It gives them some sort of satisfied pleasure that just defeats me on all levels.

It obviously makes them happy, but it makes you think about the choices we make and how they influence our lives.  Relationships are another example.

People who are miserable because they have not found the one, should be aware that they are probably not miserable because they are alone.  The more likely explanation is that their unhappiness is their own making.  The world is full of people who tell you they are unhappy because either they lack that certain someone or because the one they have makes them miserable.  The sad fact is that most of us are alone because we prefer it or together because we chose it.  If our choice has made you unhappy – then accept the role you played in that path and do something about it.  Blaming everything and everyone around you cements your powerlessness to change any of it.

Mind you at a wedding I remember my Dad giving a speech.  He concluded by wishing the couple well and said, that "we all marry who we deserve".  At that point almost every couple in the room seemed to look at their partner and think, “What the hell did I do to deserve this?”

Tuesday, 24 March 2015

Could one honest politician have the courage to say it anyway?


Is it ever so, the wealthy are greeted with open arms? Those who have money to spend are waved ashore.  A boost to the economy, the ring of cash registers heralds their entrance. The poor get no such welcome mat. They pile onto overloaded boats fleeing the intolerable to find the possible. They fill refugee camps around their country's borders. These are not rich enough to woo their suitor countries. They quite clearly are not wanted. They must scurry through dark places. Whatever savings they gather is used to bribe the smugglers. It is big business this trade. People used to earn lots of money capturing Africans and transporting them to be sold abroad into slavery. Now, there is a new currency in human flesh.  Money is to be earned transporting those who cannot bear to live in their homes to countries that do not want them, by those who make a livelihood from the spreading chaos. 

The deaths are a stain on Europe. It's red tide of shame. But compared to the loss of life and danger these refugees face at home, the journey is worth the risk. Does Europe bite its fingers in hatred that the victims don't die or suffer quietly in their own backyard’s? Don't these people see by fleeing to southern Europe they embarrass the developed world. We have become accustomed to the deaths, murders and atrocities of the third world but not in our own borders. However, Bosnia showed Europe could once more stomach the killing of large numbers.  Rwanda proved that even killings approaching a million caused handwringing but no action at the UN. The truth is less palatable than we imagine. The reality is hidden behind feel good charity endeavours. Our shame is not that we don't know what is happening. It is because we don't want to know.  

The system is sustainable because our focus is on our own misery and fears. Terrorism, viruses,  Ebola, bird flu, the weak economy, threatening wars. The distracted developed world is like a selfish adolescent who is concerned only with how things affect them. This mindset has no room for global awareness. No matter what environmental considerations, wildlife extinctions, global warming, pollution of our land, sea and air. Never mind human loss of life the show must go on. Unfortunately, we are reaching the tipping point on all fronts. Beyond which, many fear, there is no recovery. 


Some solutions are obvious. This flawed view that we can continue to abuse and over use the earth's resources to fuel a growing economy at whatever cost. It beggars belief that are our leaders could be so disengaged from reality. They, of course, are singing from the hymmn sheet, that the developed world insists on hearing, business as usual! Everything is limited.  The amount of gold, gas and oil is finite. Natural resources such as water, fish and crops are not only limited but fragile. We would do well to give our leaders a reality check. We cannot grow ourselves out of the present problems. The growth they proclaim as future progress will be at a cost the world cannot sustain. Politicians are obliged to tell us what we want to hear, either business as usual or business better than normal. They fear divergence from this popular script. 

Could somewhere, some leader have the courage to say the unpalatable.  Okay, they will never be re-elected. The truth will have to be their swan song. But, could one honest politician of any nation or background have the courage to say it anyway.

Thursday, 19 March 2015

The Charge of the Light Brigade and Florence Nightingale

(first part of this story is given in  Sa Maison and Lady Lockwood this is part 2)

After a peaceful decade of living in Malta with her daughter and son, cultivating her lovely garden Lady Lockwood must have felt a genuine relief that the torment and turbulence of her married life was behind her.  Given the court case and widespread publicity within the British papers of her husband’s abuse her garden and home in Sa Maison must have been a solace.  Few, knew of her here and she could live a quiet life in the sunny and friendly Mediterranean island.  The views from her villa and garden are breath taking and the area to this day has a wonderful calm atmosphere.

It must have been horrendous to find that peace shattered by the onset of war in the Crimean.  The British Expeditionary force arrived on route to the Crimea and some of her husband’s ex regiments were included in the battalions posted to Malta.  It seems a strange coincidence that some of the British force should be billeted in her very garden.  For a year and a half Malta was full of soldiers and in order to get to their accommodation they had to gain access through her garden.  One of the soldiers posted at this time was an artist and his paintings ( and some photographs of troops) in Malta show how much the British Expeditionary force dominated the island during this period.







Having arrived in 1843-46 Various accounts suggest that they needed to use the site of her house to position guns to defend the walls.  They wanted to demolish her house and for a year and half Lady Lockwood held out hoping that she would not lose her home.  Having been to the garden and examined the bastions it seems strange to position the guns on this lower bastion when much higher sites on the walls above would have provided greater height and range.  In the end the military had their way and her villa was knocked to the ground.  It originally was a hunting lodge built in the 18th century and its seems a shame that such a historic building was flattened to provide two gun mountings.  Lady Lockwood left the island and all that remains are the beautiful gardens and two circular slabs on which the guns were mounted.  On the adjacent walls the military have carved their insignia which can just be made out although weather worn.  I know historians have argued that the demolition  of the house was purely a military expediency but one wonders what other factors played a role in their decision.  All the paintings shown above are by a soldier from her husband’s old regiment the rifle brigade.  In the officer’s circles they must have known of her husband, Captain Robert Manners Lockwood and his disgrace in the press which had happened a few years previously.  From one historical account there is this piece which is tantalising.

‘In 1853 British military experts obtained permission to pull down the house to make way for a gun platform... the decision to bring in the Military experts to decide on the dismantling of the house was taken after Lady Lockwood gave the cold shoulder to a high ranking military official’. 

Who knows?  I found it fascinating to see that there are actual photographs of the troops at the Crimean war.  I had thought that this was before cameras were available but no there are these shots of various officers from this time and it makes it all seem so much closer.    



Florence Nightingale and forty of her nurses visited Malta on route to the Crimea and their services were much needed.  In the Crimean War (October 1853 – February 1856) Russia lost to an alliance of FranceBritain, the Ottoman Empire, and Sardinia.  At its end there were 350,000–375,000 dead.  

Florence Nightingale 1854

I remember my father would often quote from a famous poem (by Lord Tennyson) about a battle of the Crimea known as the Charge of the Light Brigade.

Half a league, half a league,
Half a league onward,
All in the valley of Death
Rode the six hundred.
"Forward, the Light Brigade!
"Charge for the guns!" he said:
Into the valley of Death
Rode the six hundred.

"Forward, the Light Brigade!"
Was there a man dismayed?
Not tho’ the soldier knew
Someone had blundered:
Theirs not to make reply,
Theirs not to reason why,
Theirs but to do and die:
Into the valley of Death
Rode the six hundred.

Cannon to right of them,
Cannon to left of them,
Cannon in front of them
Volleyed and thundered;
Stormed at with shot and shell,
Boldly they rode and well,
Into the jaws of Death,
Into the mouth of Hell
Rode the six hundred.

It ends with a section celebrating their bravery

When can their glory fade?
O the wild charge they made!
All the world wondered.
Honour the charge they made,
Honour the Light Brigade,
Noble six hundred.

A wonderful poem. It is thought a mistake was made in sending instructions to this brigade and they were sent into direct withering fire.  I find it hard to celebrate anything about war and loss of life.  Certainly, no glory or long lasting good seems to emerge from most conflicts.  Over 20,000 of the British Expeditionary force would die in the Crimean war.

“How is it possible for men to fight from morning until evening, killing each other, shedding the blood of their fellow-men: And for what object? To gain possession of a part of the earth! Even the animals, when they fight, have an immediate and more reasonable cause for their attacks! How terrible it is that men, who are of the higher kingdom, can descend to slaying and bringing misery to their fellow-beings, for the possession of a tract of land!
The highest of created beings fighting to obtain the lowest form of matter, earth! Land belongs not to one people, but to all people. This earth is not man’s home, but his tomb. It is for their tombs these men are fighting. “

Baha’i Writings



Yesterday, I walked along the front to the gardens of Sa Maison and found the flowers blooming along its outer bastions.  Spring has arrived and Lady Lockwood might have been delighted to see how much of her garden remains.  Perhaps, as Marcus Aurelius said so succintly around 170 AD, 

“What we do now echoes in eternity.”

Thursday, 12 March 2015

I have to Believe



I have to believe
there is a purpose for this 
that the chance thread 
strung between us 
will build a spiders web
intricate beauty 
shifting in light breezes
but holding firm 
catching the light
on fine translucent lines
contributing to our unity 
connecting us to our fragile 
but beautiful earth
calling on each thread
to think of the whole
each part essential
all with focus and intent
this planet is too precious
and its inhabitants too noble

I have to believe

Tuesday, 10 March 2015

Sa Maison Gardens - remembering Lady Lockwood

The old Lodge of Sa Masion, can be seen on the Bastion with blue windows

There is a garden called Sa Maison in Malta. I discovered it by accident as I walked from Sliema to Valetta along the coast. It is situated below the Bastion of Providence on the Floriana fortifications. After wandering down a tree covered passage you merge into a lovely little garden with wonderful views of Malta harbour. The atmosphere is still and akin to a secret garden. Usually empty, it feels as if it is been designed for your own pleasure. It is said that the Freemasons used to have a lodge here from 1789 until 1798 when the Knights of St John left Malta. In 1842 to 1856 Lady Julia Lockwood, daughter of the second Earl of Arran lived in this spot.  She loved this place and designed gardens to compliment her house overlooking the harbour.  This place was a special refuge for Lady Lockwood and the extent to which it brought peace and tranquillity to her heart is only understood when you know exactly what she had gone through before.  She wrote several small books years later, mentioning her time here and the healing this place brought to her life.

Lady Lockwood was the honourable Julia Gore, daughter of the second earl of Arran.  Her father Arthur Sanders Gore (1734-1808) married three times. In all, he had seven sons and nine daughters from these three marriages.  Julia was from the last marriage and her elder sister Cecilia went on to become the Duchness of Inverness.  I have been unable to find a portrait of Lady Julia Lockwood but this is her eldest sister Cecilia.




Cecilia gave her sister Julia a very special present. Queen Marie Antoinette had been executed on 16 October 1793. It is said the night before execution Maria Antoinette's hair turned from blonde to white.  Before this event  Maria Antoinette gave the Duchess a hair brooch with her hair lock in it. Subsequently Cecilia gave this brooch to Lady Julia Lockwood and it was donated to the British Museum by her descendants, where it remains on display to this day.





In 1821 Julia married Captain Robert Manners Lockwood in Rome. It didn't turn out to be a happy marriage as her husband was extremely abusive. They had two children but the unhappiness of their marriage can be found in the Annual Register of the History and Politics of the Year 1839. In this document there is an account of the legal charges that lady Lockwood brought against her husband seeking to have a divorce from her husband for cruelty.

Several of the charges are set aside by the judge simply because there were no impartial witnesses to the events. These included beatings, being kicked, dragged along the ground by her hair. Lady Lockwood was routinely attacked viciously by her husband and her 10-year-old son was beaten badly by him in front of her. He endeavoured to get her fortune from her and was very assiduous in trying to get more of her money into his hands. Unfortunately, all these charges were set aside by the judge as there were no witnesses other than the victims available. The son was able to give evidence of the abuse but the husband successfully argued that it would be too traumatic for the child to give a statement in public to the court.  In the charges that were accepted, there were times of Captain Lockwood manhandling his wife and swearing at her in the dining room, in various hotels he kicked her so violently that she sought shelter in a neighbouring room. On one occasion he broke two doors to continue the assault on his wife . While in Lady Aldborough's home, Captain Lockwood dragged Julia from the dining room by her hair up the stairs to her bedroom. Witnesses and servants all spoke of his violent abuse and the marks on her body from his kicks and punches. A doctor had been called to treat her injuries and his statements were accepted by the court. At one point Captain Lockwood attempted to force a wooden pole down his wife's throat and she was so terrified she threw herself out of the house window.  Lady Julia Lockwood suffered many miscarriages and having just had a miscarriage in Paris in 1927 he forced himself into her room and subjected her to still more violence. His abuse in 1835 towards Lady Lockwood's maid was not able to be substantiated as her word could not stand against her employer.  Following a previous separation of the couple, which lasted three years, Captain Lockwood broke into Lady Lockwood's residence in Tunbridge Wells and took possession of the house. The judge felt that this deed in particular was totally unacceptable and showed the true extent of Captain Lockwood’s violent and abusive tendencies. Interesting to note, that all the assaults on her person did not bring so much wrath from the judge, perhaps because the wife he considered the property of her husband, whereas this seizing of her own property was totally intolerable! It is disheartening to read how many times abuse towards Lady Lockwood happened in public places, in apartments where others were around. Shocking that despite this extreme violence directed to her no one actually took action in her defence. In only one instance, in all the decades of abuse, did a gentleman in the dining room arise to challenge and restrain Captain Lockwood from beating his wife.  The effect of this single action was to reduce Captain Lockwood to tears and apologies. So distressed was Lady Julia Lockwood on one ocassion in Paris that when her husband insisted on dragging her away with him, against her will, she announced that she would rather slit her own throat then accompany him anywhere. Despite Captain Robert Lockwood’s continued plea in court that his wife be forced to return to him, the judge held in favour of Lady Julia Lockwood and last she was free of her violent abuser.   She moved to Malta with her children in 1842 and described her years there until 1856 as some of the happiest of her life. In one of her books, Instinct or Reason which was dedicated to her grandson John Scott Napier she told him of her time in the Sa Maison Gardens,

“can you recollect Sa Maison where Willy was born and your Papa (Lady Lockwood's son-in-law) and I erected a fountain with dolphins shooting out water and refreshing the pretty gold and silver fish which swam under in playful delight."

“do you remember how you love to roll one orange after another as your Maltese nurse picked them from the trees placed them in your tiny hands sitting under a graceful Pepper-tree. Many also, were the lovely flowers and shrubs with the rich hues succeeding each other every month, some flowering twice a year and never leaving the garden unembellished with their gay colours. There were double pomegranates bending under the weight of the numerous Scarlet blossoms and bright green leaves of the tall straight branches of the hibiscus..”

“I wish I could have shown you my little grey Maltese cat Mimma. She was quite wise enough to be put in a book she came when she was called she walked with us in the garden and fields like a dog ..”

At times she quoted from poetry to describe her delight in the garden.

“give me to scent that balmy breeze
to feel thy grateful shade 
ere pale fatigue my limbs shall seize
ere sight and strength shall fade
closed Thou mine eyes and let me roam
O’er heavenly realms and find my home!”

Many of her writing are instructions on how to behave, obviously learned during her eventful life.

 “We  should not wait for opportunities but constantly make them and always be ready to help others.  To bear one another's burdens and so fulfil the Law of Christ.”

“Oh Lord, how manifold are thy works! In wisdom hast Thou made them all.” Psalm 104 

In one of her books entitled ‘Cyrus’ she praises the Persian king for his control and his lack of aggression towards others. Even when put in challenging situations, and despite his great power, he always kept control of his emotions and actions. To lady Lockwood, who had been the victim of so much violent abuse, such characteristics in a man must've seemed particularly admirable.

Sa Maison Gardens



Unfortunately, lady Lockwood's stay in Sa Maison came to an end. The British Expeditionary force on its way to Crimea came to Malta and they constructed their officer's quarters in the garden of Sa Maison in 1854.  For a year and a half lady Julia Lockwood fought to keep her home but it was flattened to the ground and she was forced to return to Scotland.  In a few paintings we can see the garden and the outline of the building that existed on the Bastian.  Fortunately, the garden remains but the historic lodge is no longer there.  On the walls of the Bastian the military forces that came to Malta left their shields and marks of their regiments carved into the walls of the garden. But the garden itself has a lovely atmosphere and the local Maltese refer to it, still, as the Lady’s garden.  It reminds me of Glasgow city, which during the years of Nelson Mandela's imprisonment in South Africa decided to rename one of their major city squares Nelson Mandela Square in support of his cause. The name change was made more significant by the fact that the South African consulate-general was based on the fifth floor of the Stock Exchange building, at an address which now bore the name of the country's most famous political prisoner.  I like to think, that in a similar manner, that the Maltese have kept the name 'Lady’s garden' in memory of this gentle soul who found solace and peace in their midst.

Friday, 6 March 2015

Pills, payment and poor judgment





















Clinical studies are a very important step in bringing any drug to the market. However, there are ethical considerations to such studies that have all too often been ignored. The Tuskegee syphilis experimental study was conducted between 1932 and 1972 by the US Public Health Service. Its purpose was to study the natural progression of untreated syphilis in rural African Americans in Alabama. These men were told that they would get free healthcare from the US government, they would have meals paid for and in addition to their free medical care they would also get free burial insurance. Following the Great Depression of the 1930s this was an enticing offer and 600 impoverished sharecroppers from Macon County, Alabama signed up. 399 had syphilis while 201 didn't have the disease.  None of the men were told that they had the disease syphilis and none were given treatment instead they were told “they had bad blood”. In 1940 penicillin had become the standard treatment for syphilis but the scientist prevented participants in the study from accessing syphilis treatments available to others living locally. The study continued for 40 years and only ended on November 16, 1972 when the study was leaked to the press. By then 28 men had died, 40 wives contracted syphilis and 19 children were born with congenital syphilis. During the start of World War II, 250 of the participants registered for the draft. During their medical inspection syphilis was detected and they were ordered to take treatment before reapplying. The scientists, even then, tried to stop them from getting treatment for their syphilis. On May 16, 1997, President Bill Clinton formally apologized and held a ceremony at the White House for surviving Tuskegee study participants. He said:
"What was done cannot be undone. But we can end the silence. We can stop turning our heads away. We can look at you in the eye and finally say on behalf of the American people, what the United States government did was shameful, and I am sorry ... To our African American citizens, I am sorry that your federal government orchestrated a study so clearly racist."
Five of the eight study survivors attended the White House ceremony.
Meanwhile, syphilis was also being given deliberately to some people by the US government.  In 1946, under the guise of public health, hundreds of Guatemalan prison inmates were deliberately infected with syphilis. Male prisoners were sometimes infected via direct injection—including right to the penis. Still other prisoners got sick after visits from prostitutes who were often also purposely infected. None of the research subjects were asked for their consent.  Up to the 1970’s, 85% of stage 1 clinical trials were carried out on prisoners.  This ranged from studying chemical warfare agents to testing dandruff treatments.
Some six decades later Pres. Barack Obama called Álvaro Colom, Guatemala’s president, to personally apologize for the abhorrent U.S. government–led research.

During the 1950s and 1970s at the Willowbrook state school in Staten Island, New York there were 6000 children with mental disabilities. They were intentionally given hepatitis A to try and understand development of viral infection. Consent was given by the authorities in charge of the institution. It was the biggest state run institution for children with mental disability in the United States. Hepatitis A was deliberately given to these vulnerable children without their knowledge or consent.
Senator Robert Kennedy toured Willowbrook State School in 1965 and proclaimed that individuals in the overcrowded facility were "living in filth and dirt, their clothing in rags, in rooms less comfortable and cheerful than the cages in which we put animals in a zoo" 

In 1996 Pfizer was sued for unethical clinical trials. During a meningitis outbreak in Africa the company treated 100 Nigerian children with the antibiotic Trovan in order to test its effectiveness.  Of the hundred children treated 11 children died, others were brain-damaged. Some were partially paralyzed or left deaf. Dr Juan Walterspiel, a Pfizer infectious disease specialist was assigned to the Trovan test and repeatedly flagged up, to management, that the company was violating international law federal regulations and medical ethical standards. 

Dr. Walterspiel’s letter to Steere, dated Dec. 18, 1997, was not well received. Among the points he made: 

“Some of the children were in critical condition and most of them malnourished, which made oral absorption even more unpredictable. At least one died after a single oral dose; such a patient should never have received an experimental antibiotic orally.”

Shortly after publishing his thoughts Dr Walterpiel was dismissed by Pfizer.


Between 1997 and 2002 clinical trials were conducted on HIV infected children and infants who were under the guardianship of New York City Agency for Children Services. The children were living in a foster care centre in Harlem and were forced to take medication that made them severely ill and had potentially lethal side-effects. New York City agency for children services provided consent for this clinical trial themselves.

In 1997 unethical clinical trials aimed at preventing the spread of HIV infection were targeting pregnant women in Africa Asia and the Caribbean. This clinical study was funded by the US government. People were randomly given placebo rather than the drug.  It was pointed out that such actions would have been deemed totally unacceptable within the US but for some reason were seemed fine for the developing world.

In case one feels that the situation today is free of such unethical practices you need only look at an article in the Lancet in June 2014 to find quite the contrary. At a clinical trial in India they were evaluating an experimental vaccine for preventing a life-threatening viral infection, rotavirus. 2000 children received instead placebos of salt water. It should be noted that two rotavirus vaccines had already been available for 10 years when this clinical research took place. In 2013 The World Health organisation published findings, which showed that 450,000 children died from rotavirus infection globally in one year. 90% of these deaths occurred in Africa and Asia.

Sometimes it is not even the drug company’s fault.  A medical trial began in 2003, when a dozen researchers at Imperial College London began trialing a new drug on 38 asthma sufferers at St Mary’s Hospital, London. Unknown to the others working on the clinical study, one of the staff, Dr Edward Erin was falsifying his data and had been doing so for years. The search for a cure for asthma left one man dead, 20 seriously ill with pneumonia and eight with cancer.

Worryingly in this world where doctors change data, pharmaceutical companies set aside ethics and governments experiment on the poor, disabled and vulnerable there is a new change in direction.  Now, that prisoners are no longer available for clinical trials, due to changes in legislation, others are being targeted.  Volunteering to undertake phase 1 clinical studies can bring you as much as 3000 dollars for a few weeks of injections and medical procedures.  In these harsh economic conditions more and more are stepping forward as drug trial guinea pigs.  Many have not thought through the dangers they may face.  In 2006 in a London hospital six healthy young men were treated for organ failure after experiencing a serious reaction within hours of taking the drug TGN1412 in a clinical trial.

‘After they were all admitted to intensive care, two became critically ill, the worst affected lost his fingers and toes, and all the men were subsequently told they would be likely to develop cancers or auto-immune diseases as a result of their exposure to the drug.’



It seems drugs can be dangerous while you design them, when you test them, after you use them and even after you’ve stopped using them!